Is it Worth it?

 The voice is in the distance but it's getting closer and closer

Louder and louder

It is piercing, wailing, raging

It grieves

It is exhausting

Tired

Its been beaten, dragged through the streets, lynched, shot

Left for dead

Forgotten

Pushed aside

Did you hear it yet?

Is it not loud enough?

Your ears are covered

Maybe you see it

The tears

The funerals

The marches

The signs that demand equality

The signs that demand justice

The signs that demand respect

The art that portrays the ones that were killed

Do you feel it yet?

The desperation, the fear, the anger, sorrow, rawness, hopelessness

Do you feel your fear, your shame, your guilt?

Is it catching up?

The divide is caving in

What are you going to do?

When we live at another's expense

Is it worth it?

When White privilege is a priority

Is it worth it?

When we look at strangers or outsiders with righteousness in our eyes

Is it worth it?

When we marginalize people of color or those who have a different sexual preference than we do

Is it worth it?

When we deny the truth that White supremacy has indoctrinated this country from its inception

Is it worth it?

When we put bank accounts, lust for power and status before human life and the wellbeing of our planet

Is it worth it?

When we prioritize the whiteness of skin and heterosexuality over everything else 

Is it worth it?

When we deny the trauma we have all experienced to the point that it is killing us all now

Is it worth it?

The time has come

It is all catching up

This way of life is not sustainable

What are you going to do?


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