The Changing Season

 The Changing Season

 

 

As the season is changing, I notice how the sun is withdrawing

It feels like it needs to take its own space

It has given me as much as it can

I miss it towards the end of the day

The energy it gives me is slowly diminishing

I feel a loss

An emptiness sinks into my stomach

Loneliness becomes my companion

As I sit in this moment, in the metamorphosis going on in the atmosphere that pulls my body and soul

I want to escape

It seems too daunting to navigate the dark days that are waiting for me

I feel too fragile to enter the cold that will be outside the front door

The threat of being alone in this overwhelms my psyche

Yet I have been in this isolation over the last several months

And I have been able to manage it

With the sun, the warm breeze, the parks, trails, lakes, and trees

They have been my companions that have provided me unconditional love

They have spoken to me, held me, comforted me, and gave me inspiration

I want to take these resources into the tundra

To sooth me

To let me know I am safe

Each day I see the changes as the leaves fall, the birds gather and scatter,

I anticipate the isolation

It registers down inside of me that change is in the air

My tendency is to jump out of my body and look around frantically

I feel I need a place to land to keep me safe and sane

As I breath slow and deep, it brings me back

Into my body

Down into my core, my center, the inner sanctuary

Where it is still and tender

Where the divine light shines, glows, and it becomes the sun that warms my soul

And keeps me safe as I feel the joy of the new season coming

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  1. JZimmermanSeptember 12, 2020 at 10:23 AM

    This is one of the most beautiful pieces of writing you’ve ever written.

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