Life and the Virus

 Life and the Virus

 

There is a constant alarm that goes off in my head

It signals that the virus could be anywhere

It is lurking in the store that I shop in

At the outdoor event where there are bare faces that breath out danger

I am hesitant to stand near the ones I love, not wanting to get or give an illness

The invisible germ that could be inhaled anywhere, anytime

They say there will be another that is waiting to come out

And another

We have drilled, polluted, contaminated, deforested, and neglected our planet

The entitlement of the self-appointed leaders who have accumulated power and wealth, have taken the right to destroy anything in their path, to use whatever means they have, to grow their domains

At the expense of animals, plants, forests, oceans, humans, and the air

I wake up to another day of wonder and awe at what will be brought to me by the universe

What beautiful, natural part of this Earth will draw me in today?

Who will connect with my soul that will nourish my being?

And how do I protect my body, my organs, from harm?

The toxicity of this competitive, aggressive, inhumane way of doing life in this culture

That has scarred and poisoned the natural and divine container for us all

Has now come back at us

It has crept into our neighborhoods, houses, places of work and worship, our every -day lives

The ultra-wealthy and powerful have made their mark

On us all

And now I carry the inner burden of being on guard

I fight for my life by being vigilant of what I come in contact with, and yet I try to live with having fun and spontaneity

The feeling of joy I get from watching the colorful sky as it wakes up in the morning

Or seeing a toddler dressed in the cutest of outfits walking innocently

Lands in my heart softly and gently

And then I continue on my path making sure what I breath is safe from harmful contagions

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